[OOC] This is intended to be the entry prior to her being pulled into Econtra. [/OOC]
This is all so new. You’d think that after having duties defending the world from, well, the scum of the universe… and feeling pretty confident about being able to do it again, should the need arise… doing something like this would be a piece of cake.
After all, it’s just a business plan. What’s a business plan, compared to the destruction of a metropolis or two? How’s getting a few paragraphs about marketing strategy straight, compared with making sure the flows and strands of time, and of history, are all in the right order? It should be easy.
Having felt my hands were tied all these years, I assumed that once I set myself free, I’d just be raring to go, and all of these brilliant, pent up ideas would just gush out.
But it isn’t wooorking. It’s odd. It’s a matter of confidence, in two strands. The first is just the gut feeling that yes, I am confident and certain that this is what I want to do. Yes, I do think I have a sense of style and the commitment and passion to making a business work. Yes, oh yes, can I ever multitask. I have management skills like you wouldn’t believe. But I couldn’t tell you about that, my dear potential investor, because that would be telling you about my other identity, and then, of course, I’d have to kill you. (Or at least those are the official rules…)
But still, I feel so inept. That’s the practical side of the confidence issue, the side that I totally lack. I live with two people who have been considered style icons most of their lives, and they have no better sense of business than I do. They’re so sweet and encouraging, at this stage, maybe even surprised. “Whoa, Setsuna actually had a secret ambition, all this time?” “What did you expect? I have layers!” They’re both artists, they should understand that… but they’ve never really seen this side of me, I guess. Well, this isn’t the first time I’ve thoroughly surprised them. But the fact they are impressed, that they mean well… while they’d be fabulous help on design and concepts… right now that isn’t getting me anywhere.
I can’t peek into the future to “predict” trends. I can’t replay history over and over if a meeting with a potential backer goes bad with a bad business plan. My “mad skillz,” as the kids call them, aren’t going to work right now.
Oh well, off to bed. Guess I’ll have to hit up the business school library tomorrow morning before class.
Current Mood: 
discouraged